From L word Season 4 Epi6

Shane: I am that kind of person when I get too close to someone I push her away.

Do I really care?

There are just something that you care so much so you cant feel you care anymore.

So, If I say I dun care, it might be I care too much, or I really dun care. See how you interpret!

I do get jealous at times, but I always act in a way to make people jealous. *evil me.... kind of extreme reaction. bad bad bad.......

EYah..emotion stuff

coming to the end of semester soon. As usual, i feel nothing, or rather there are too many things I should lay my emotion at which makes me refuse to have feelings for any. Or maybe I am just a bastard who has no feelings. LOL...* laugh at oneself....

I think I laugh too much even the saddest thing in life can be a joke to me. I do have feelings or emotions towards things that are irrelevant to me. I show sympathies towards the poor family I visited during my back pack trip in China, I cried for victims of varies disasters; I care and concern 3rd world country people who are struggling in life. But, I just find difficulties in expressing emotions towards issues that relate to myself.

Someone once told me this: you have very deep threshold. You have one of the most complicated personalities that I ever seen.
LOL... yeah, life experiences and alot of things happened in life have forced me to grow up. I have learnt to protect myself by locking up emotions. I don't talk about it, because I don't think about it. Some stuffs are just nice to keep them frozen otherwise soon they will turn rotten and eventaully corrode the healthy flesh.

I am happy to be who I am. (present tense)
I wanna forget who I was.
I don't think about who I will be.